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Trauma Warrior and Mental health advocate
Trauma Warrior and Mental health advocate
I want to force myself to talk about this. Because there is a strong and deep pull for me to share my experience and perspective so that others can find comfort or guidance in their healing process. Because it fucking sucks going through it, and half the time it feels like you are completely nuts! Hearing peoples experiences similar to mine gave me light in the darkest of days; the comfort of knowing you’re not alone can sometimes be that last burst of energy you need to carry on another day.
Really if I were to break down my story, it would be a trip to read and probably take 2 years LOL. I’m going to break it down into smaller chunks and do a ‘series’ or ‘collection’ so i don’t sit here and write and entire book. So what I am going to do is provide windows, small examples that highlight my key point in a concise way. With that being said, I am not saying that these instances alone are the cause, nor am I condemning anyone for specific actions. A person is the sum of their actions and intentions and to cut out a scene very specifically, only provides a grain of sand to their beach. Therefor, providing only a ‘window’ into the world/mindset/reality of the person and situation.
(This is my Standard Disclaimer 😉)
Let’s start by building a basis for our understanding of trauma.
What is Trauma?
Psychology today defines Trauma as “The experience of severe psychological distress following any terrible or life-threatening event.” *Reference Link*
When the subject of PTSD is brought up most peoples mind instantly goes to the soldiers returning from war. Which is a very real problem, don’t get me wrong, but it is on the more physical extreme end of the spectrum and includes one event.
CPTSD stands for Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. Described by ‘Braden Counseling’ as a; “mental health condition in which a person might experience intense PTSD symptoms that coincide with other mental issues. CPTSD occurs in people who have been subjected to ongoing traumatizing experiences.” *Reference Link*
To give us a physical metaphor, we are going to describe it as a stab wound. Now I know its “graphic” but it gives me the flexibility of different environments and severity. So I’m rolling with it =P
PTSD is like a very deep, quick, stab to a vital area of the body.
CPTSD is like repeated stab wounds to non-vital areas that can allow the person to bleed out over time.
Sometimes the stab is with a clean sharp knife, sometimes it’s a three-pronged blade and the attacker twists it, and sometimes it’s a shallow seemingly nothing prick of a poison dart.
Many have abandoned our ‘emotional bodies’ and tend to forget that these things have very real physical impacts on your brain and neural activity. We need to treat these traumas as an open wound and get serious about caring for it to heal properly. You would not get stabbed and then just pretend like it never happened, it would be ludicrous! Even if you did, that runs the risk of it healing improperly causing lasting and limiting effects, like a broken bone. It could turn septic and kill you.
Exactly, you would treat it as necessary, cleaning and caring for the wound to minimize pain, damage, and scaring.
The same mindset needs to be applied to mental and emotional ‘wounds’. Never underestimate the inter-connectivity of everything, those ripples travel far and wide in your psyche.
When looking at and studying these things, one must remember it is just as much (if not more) complex as life itself, the variables are endless.
Which is why…
You are a collection of unique experiences that provides valuable insight and information to the human experience!!!
For those of you who don’t know or haven’t seen it… This was our basement project and we are SUPER proud of 😊
Quick flashback… we bought this house and worked on it before moving in, so we were extremely motivated, its important I preface with that lol. The initial tear up and finishing the basement took us 3 months. But the little improvements and personal touches have just come with time 😊
What we did
Tore out the panels to find they were nailed to 1x3's (knowing we were mounting things to the walls)
We then decided to pull out that framing and build our own new frames with 2x4's
Sealed the walls
Rick put in the insulation
Ran new romex to create new plugs and can lighting
We definitely paid someone to do the dry wall :) cause fuck mudding that
Spray painted the ceiling
Primed and painted the new walls
Got vinyl plank flooring installed
Sanded and stained the existing trim
Built our Tri-force entertainment center
Before Pictures =)
In Between Pictures!
Yoga with Adriene - Yoga For Connection
Taking care of yourself physically, mentally, emotionally, or however you want to put it; doesn’t always look like the ‘grind’ or the ‘struggle’. While it most definitely includes it, its not the entire picture. Sometimes it looks and feels like this yummy yoga practice; learning to be still and work on the foundation instead ‘pumping iron’.
Like the Yin and the Yang, both aspects are necessary to achieve the total product and balance.
Electrical disconnect, being outside -_-
So yesterday my fiancé and I learned another fun homeowner lesson with our electrical 😊
It started with our lights were acting weird, like haunted house weird, in our bathroom.
Then our internet went out (while trying to play fall guys!) and I noticed a tripped breaker. Didn’t think much of it because when I flipped the breaker it all seemed to be honky dory.
Nope, we wake up the next morning and the lights are flickering while my fiancé was trying to get ready for work. Then we also notice our air conditioner wasn’t cooling the house off. (FML its super-hot and the end of Aug -_-). So we turn the air conditioner off and then on again, this brings to our attention that nothing in the kitchen (stove, microwave, fridge, Keurig) will work if we turn the AC off, even though it wasn’t cooling the house.
WTF, considering we have above average electrical understanding, and we were up at 4am crying ‘what the actual fuck is going on’. We call his parents who are also just getting up with coffee in hand. My fiancé’s step dad is an electrical engineer and even he is stumped at the moment (understand this is 4am and none of us have seen the bottom of our coffee mugs).
We tried to investigate but it was leaving us with a semi working kitchen, constantly resetting internet, basement plugs don’t work but the lights do, the lights in the bathroom wouldn’t stay on and felt like a strobe light party but the fucking plug worked! Needless to say, it was a hot mess morning LOL
All the electricians in the area don’t open till 8am so we are stuck with our hot mess until we could get a hold of someone to come out.
Even when we started calling people at 8 am, finding someone for that day was becoming an issue, and they were recommending we call the illuminating/electric utilities first to make sure it wasn’t a bad connection.
Could not speak to anyone on the phone as it was an automated service ticket system 😊 and only received a text that it was awaiting dispatch. After some bullshittery around 12:30 pm maybe the illuminating guy shows up and checks our meter and the power going in. Says everything’s good and we should check the main disconnect and make sure it has power. Okay, well, we thought we checked it because the only main breaker we have is in the basement.
We come to learn from the electrician that was able to come out, that we are special 😊 cause of course we are.
Most people only have one service disconnect, and its in the basement. We have two, one that we knew of in the basement, andddd one below the meter that is on a separate pole, that connects to our box underground. The breaker on that second disconnect, was fucking melted to the busbar and we only had one pole of power coming to the house (air conditioner takes both poles of the power, so that’s why it went 1st). We are lucky it just melted and didn’t catch on fire -_-
So we take this one and add it the homeowner lessons we have learned file XD
This blog came out of my life experiences and personal goals to always be a work in progress, a forever student of wisdom, and a better understanding.